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[Oh boy. At the mention of the author, Elsa cringes.]

Wow, you must really be trying to put yourself to sleep if you're reading his work at this hour.

[It's good work! But boy, how he rambles. Even thinking about how dry those books are makes Elsa yawn a little as she takes a spot next to Anna; not quite hip to hip, but close enough. The kind of close they've finally been able to come to enjoy after so many years apart.]

There's something I've been meaning to talk to you about, for a while now. Not that I'm... scared to talk about it, but the time never seemed right.

[It's sort of true. She's scared to talk about it, but no more than she's scared to talk about any of her other personal issues. She knows Anna will love her no matter what she says or does, it's just.... the act of talking itself is what's difficult.]

But after what happened in the aftermath of the undead attack, I feel like I should finally bring it up.

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Heh! I guess so....he's good once he gets going, y'know? It's just getting to the good parts that's so hard.

[Anna goes ahead and nestles just a little closer. Her days of holding her sister at a cautious arm's length are long over; it's like an instinctive need to moor herself with Elsa's presence.

The mention of the undead attack has Anna's eyebrows disappearing up into her leafy bangs.]

...Uhh, I don't have another ex-wife, do I?

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[If Anna's presence wasn't enough to calm Elsa's jittery nerves, than her sudden question is definitely enough to break that line of tension. Poor Elsa makes a rather unflattering, almost squawking sound, a mix of confusion and surprise, before she quickly shakes her head.]

Wh--no!! Of course not! I promise, Lorna is the only one.

[............. That she knows of, at least. Who knows what Anna got up to before Elsa arrived those few years ago....]

It's... something about me. Something it took a while for me to come to terms with. But you... you helped me with it.

[As she speaks, Elsa's hands fidget. So much of her emotions were centered around her hands; the way she'd clench them when she was nervous or frustrated, the constant tap-tap-tap on a table or desk if she was bored, or the way they twisted and curled around each other like she was trying to tie them into knots when she was nervous. Right now, it's very much the latter.]

I realized, during my time in this land... I think I have a preference for women. Only women. [A pause, and the tips of her ears turn a darker shade of green with a blush.] In, um. In a romantic sense, I mean.

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Ha! Oh, good.

[It's good to see Elsa laugh, relax a little. If Anna had said that a year ago, it might have triggered an anxiety spiral. But this...this is a marked improvement. Even the wringing of her hands is less worry-making than usual. Anna supposes that when you're a monster who eats people, there's not much worse to worry about.

Her eyebrows raise, but Anna merely gestures for Elsa to go on. She can tell it's getting to the juicy part, after all! And as Elsa does go on, her eyes go wide with delight, and without a word, Anna throws her arms around Elsa and hugs her.]

Elsa! That's amazing! ...it's not just me!

[defyingfrigidity]

[It's part the monster thing, and part just... being surrounded by people willing to help her. Anna was a huge help back home, of course, as were Kai and Gerda... but for as much as those two feel like an uncle and aunt at times, they were still her servants. There's only so much they can do for her. But here, Elsa has friends, people she wants to be better for... in a way, Ryslig has been good for her.

But it's also been bad. Even more guilt, even more trauma... it's only because Elsa's gotten so good at burying her fear and self-loathing that she seems okay with her life here. But this- what they're talking about now! There's nothing to fear with this. Worry, yes, because it could cause problems back home... but not fear. So when Anna hugs her, the nerves melt away, and a smile spreads across Elsa's face as she leans against her sister.]

It's thanks in part to you, you know! From, ah... from before, that is. [Okay, maybe there are some nerves to be had with this whole reveal. But she just doesn't want to make Anna feel awkward now...] Seeing you with another girl... it helped, when I finally started questioning myself, and my feelings for others. I didn't even give a second thought to the possibility of liking women... just how it would affect me.

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[Anna can feel herself blushing, feel the tendrils and leaves near her face curl a little bit in response, and she sits back on the bed, laughing softly.]

Wow, geez...I'm happy I could help, apparently!

[Her brow wrinkles, a little, at that last part. Something isn't quite clicking in her head.]

What do you mean, 'how it would affect you'?

[defyingfrigidity]

[Why is her sister so damn cute??? Maybe it's a good thing Anna is a nymph, not a nephilim, or else she'd probably be shining like the sun right now. Elsa's about to reach up to pinch her sister's cheeks, but that question... ah. It makes Elsa's own smile fade just a bit, and her gaze drop to the floor.]

It, ah... [Don't conceal it, Elsa. You promised not to hide things from Anna, even if they're difficult...] It's... a bit at odds, to certain duties of mine as queen.

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[Anna's brow furrows, and she regards Elsa with a raised eyebrow. As usual, she's not quite getting the point.]

What? Liking girls doesn't make you any less good at ruling a country. What a silly idea!

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[The look of confusion on Anna's face is mirrored on Elsa's for a moment, before realization sets in. Ah, Anna didn't get it...]

Oh! No, I didn't mean it would affect how I would rule, just...

[It's sort of... nice, talking about it like this, instead of during an anxiety spiral when she confessed her feeling about Lup to Marco. Not that it doesn't make her nervous, and the desire to clam up rather than talk about her issues and her insecurities is a strong one. But in a relatively calmer state of mind, without spilling all of her secrets out all at once... it doesn't make her as scared to talk.]

You know I have certain... expectations put upon me as queen. To marry a man, have children... [She reaches up, nervously scratching at the back of her neck.] My attraction to women complicates that, just a bit.

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[Oh. Ohhhhh. Anna's cheeks burn; she'd be the first to admit that she was having a bit of a ditzy moment. She laughs nervously, rubs the back of her neck.]

...Right! Of course, ha. I knew that. But, hey.

[Anna shrugs, trying to lighten the mood a little.] You're the queen! You could just...change the law, right?

[defyingfrigidity]

[Marco had asked her the same thing. It sounds sensible, and harmless, but... this is Elsa. Poor Elsa who overthinks everything and refuses to think about herself unless other people force her to, no matter how much she may be hurting herself in the process.]

I don't want to be selfish. Changing hundreds of years of tradition for my sake... it doesn't feel right.

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[Anna hums pensively for a moment, and after a moment she begins to reply, slowly.]

Well...what if it wasn't just for your sake? What if, by changing the law, you were helping a bunch of other people who have the same problem. Just...on a different scale, probably.